My Way Out [entries|friends|calendar] Daniel [ website | MYSPAZZ ] [ userinfo | livejournal userinfo ] [ calendar | livejournal calendar ]

Don't Let It Drag You Down [30 Jun 2009|12:55am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | I'm Gone, I;m Going - Lesley Roy ] So would you take banter from other people no matter what? Do you just accept it in order to feel wanted? I hate it. Whilst I do love my friends just sometimes annoys me especially when they think I'm like the BttF photo and fading as they ignore me. Anna seemed to care but I feel any truth I would give her would be thrown back at me with some sort of remark or banter which would destroy my trust in her. Rich cares more about his ego and hoping that nothing ever comes out about him being a bastard to his GF even though his GF looks at him funny when he talks to Soph. Soph doesn't care enough said. I need help or even just some sort of fake veil of truth sometimes. It works much better then the bottom of a bottle. If I was ever to just fully break and give in most of my uni mates would just look at me weird and hate me. I feel Kelly cares a little but again I wonder how much her trust in humans would go when she found out about Rich.. Luke's a twat. Sam is a lazy cunt and they all have bets on me Kat which is just insane. I have no idea what I want from life which is half the reason I have nothing. I have no job and on wednesday will get kicked off my Masters course so yeah cool. I jus well... have nothing I want. ANd anything I do, doesn;t want me. Here I Go, I'm Gone, I'm going. 4 Written|Write

I Will Never Let You Down [06 May 2009|12:50am] [ mood | Game Over ] [ music | Untouched - The Veronicas ] Can't write here anymore. 2 Written|Write

A Mirror Reflecting The Truth [12 Jan 2009|03:46pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | Folding Stars - Biffy Clyro ] So I just failed my first exam. How'd I know this well because I answered 2 question. Of 6...for about 20 marks when the pass mark is 35. Yeah woo. I just want to go crawl in a hole and sleep but I know I have another one tomorrow. Joyous. And I'm not sure what to do. I don't know if I want it or not. Balls. 2 Written|Write

The Drums Are Four To The Floor [05 Jan 2009|08:32pm] [ mood | guilty ] [ music | [Coffee's For Closers] - Fall Out Boy ] I am back in the gloriousness of freedom.. IE I'm back in York and all seems well and not different. I got back to find a fire extinguisher, my ace secret santa pressie (A T-shirt with a game boy on, like I am the game boy) and a rusty saw from the roof. They definatly party hard my flatmates. Turns out they also rearranged Dave's room when he was on the toilet. Took them 3 minutes now that's dedidication. Anywho, as for revision I'm slowly learning nothing only the fact I'm gonna fail massivly and this won't be good and more than likely be kicked of the masters course. Oh dear. I need at least a 60 average at the end of the year and these modules count as double a normal mark as it's year two so a fail here hurts... espech as I'm currently on a 55. I need some good high 60 scores. Please? We are also starting to Marathon Lost in prep for the new seasopn and to get it out of the way for all the new stuff. New Fringe, Heroes, 24, Lost OMG sooo much good stuff and not enough time. I'm also on season 3 of Battlestar Galactica. Tis very dark and dramay. Not really true sci-fi. But a good sort of early on sci-fi. Mmm. Right tomorrow I need to move my room round cause I dislike the way it is now, then I'll revise two other modules (reserving wednesday for the one I just don't get) and possibly attempt to cook something other than curry. Although I hear Anna is having a girl night tomorrow so us men will be banished but knowing me I'll be dragged in, force fed wine and tried to be draw upon in mascara. Eep. Maybe they can give me girly advice though which'd help right now. I don't know how do I end up in these situations eh? ~~~ I can't explain a thing I want everything To change and stay the same oh time Doesn't care about anyone or anything Come together Come apart Only get lonely when you read the charts 1 Written|Write

Hear Me Scream Outside Your Window [30 Dec 2008|11:31pm] [ mood | apathetic ] [ music | Feathers - Coheed and Cambria ] Today has been well good. Went to Leeds for a little trip and ended up in possibly one the most random days in awhile. Started out just wandering round Leeds with Ash, Glen, Josh and John. A couple of places then me and Ash went off to get a SHisha but beforehand ran into Taz (well hunted him out) and played some Guitar Hero where I got owned because I was stood up. So then met up with Joel and his sound flatmate Brad for a Shisha where we also met some random girls from Huddersfield who Joel knew which was cool. ANywho, Joel and Brad went off for some vigil for Gaza or something for a bit so we got Stolyes down, had a subway, met up with Joel and went some random bar that had Samuel Smiths. Mmmm... I do miss that good ol' cider from York. So good. Then we went to a good old spoons and met up with his mates and chilled. They were a bit mental lol. This one girl was scything towards Stolyes when he said she was middle class. As Brad put she's "dangerous. Hot but dangerous". Then we were outside having a cig (ssshhhh) when this homeless busker walks up to me, Joel, Ash and Elle (the dangerous one) and says he's gonna serenade Elle. Well first he called her Helena, then started singing the right song as people left and yelled at them for wafting our smoke, then made the best lyric ever:"She makes us glad that we aren't gay!". He got a tip from all of us. Legend. Anywho, eventually we left and got a maccy D's before going home. SO good. And I'm feeling better. Even if right now I don't want to stay at home but the thought of going back to a flat with a few people who think I'm a nosy bastard, bit of a crappy landlord and the only person in the flat who keeps me sane possibly leaving...well...here's to 09. History’s made its mark in anger. As everybody knows, it's what we do, It's nothing new. 1 Written|Write

But I'm No Good At Math [17 Dec 2008|12:09am] [ mood | blah ] [ music | The (Shipped) Gold Standard - Fall Out Boy ] I do miss LJ. Ok, so there isn't any new news really. I'm having some problems figuring out what to do for New Years because there is the party in Leeds (or so Ash tells me) at Joels and that sounds good and cheap cause it will equal one crate of cider and done and dusted. There is though something in York with lots of peeps and that'd be nice but probs very expensive. I'm torn. But I do want to see people from home. So I'll end up doing that more than likely. Been abusing the Wii lately. Nailing one and all on mario kart in a suped up Peach bike. Aw-Yeah. And, even though I have managed to keep a lid on it, I'm still badly crushing on my friend. Dearie me, I wonder why I do this to myself. ~~~ I wanna scream 'I love you' from the top of my lungs But I'm afraid that someone else will hear me ♥ 4 Written|Write

I Have No Mouth But I Must Scream [29 Nov 2008|06:05pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Bounce- The Cab ] I really do not use LJ at all anymore which is a shame cause it was all I did at one point in my life. I guess now it's all facebook and uni stuff which is true but I would like to clean this place up eventually. Ok, well, my grandma died 2 weeks ago. In fact shortly after my last post. I effectivly skipped lectures and seminars for 3 days then went home on monday cause the funeral was on a tuesday/ Anywho, it was a bit of farce really. First of all, the vicar kept saying Seddon. Secondly, I get the feeling I would have been more upset if they didn't keep asking me to pray every 2 seconds to something I don't believe in. My Grandad also had no idea what was going on just kept wondering why so many people were around that he knew. I just feel a bit bad actually. And scared. My grandma died in a hospital bed on her own and that just scares the shit out of me. Also I know I'll have another funeral for my grandad as now being on his own things are aren't looking good. Yeah no good. As for uni I'm getting a bit sick of maths now. And the fact that everyone else is better than me. I suck. I have loads os assignments a week and lectures and it just hurts me. Living is good though in the house. Thankfully. ~~~~ You wear your heart on your sleeve and threw mine to the sky 3 Written|Write

Recent [12 Nov 2008|01:16am] [ mood | drained ] [ music | Obstacle 1 - Interpol ] Ok current thoughts are:- -Why can women be so confusing at times. And still at a more than mature age prefer complete dickheads to actual nice guys. -My Grandma is dying. And I feel far too guilty. -Pizza good, Money bad. -I miss old times when school was lessons, Pineapples were cocconuts and drunkenness was funny. ~~~~ It's in the way that she poses, it's in the things that she puts in my head Her stories are boring and stuff, she's always calling my bluff She puts, she puts the weights into my little heart And she gets in my room and she takes it apart She puts the weights into my little heart I said she puts the weights into my little heart It's in the way that she walks Her heaven is never enough She puts the weights in my heart She puts, oh she puts the weights into my little heart 2 Written|Write

Head Emptying [29 May 2008|01:57am] [ mood | blah ] I am... A geek. Ugly. Failing my degree in every way. Missing too many seminars and lectures. Skint. About to get cut off from my parents. Have no job. Homesick. Ignored. Lonely. Single. Like a girl who doesn't like me (oh isn't it always the way). Depressed. Peer pressured. Loved by no one. I've burnt out. 3 Written|Write

Work And Play [23 Mar 2008|04:40pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | Decoy - Paramore ] Ok, so I've had my week of meaningless activities, sleeping in till about 11 and generally playing far too much Devil May Cry. Time to do some of that work that I should do cause you know it's my exams for university that finally count for something. Erk. Ok so the plan is to sort out my DEFS first as it's the module I like the most so write up notes into a new shortened form and print out various crap I need off tinternet. Also then start doing some questions not straight into past papers cause I'd be suiciding my chances of revision. Then I think Matrices on Tuesday, Calculus on Wednesday, attempt some analysis on Thursday and have Friday all to myself. Mmmm... Ok, I'm getting too into gaining achievements on the Xbox. I have to get them they just sit there and ask to be gotten. It's annoying cause it's all I do lol. I need to do things! Ok, as I have no inner turmoil or anything else this where the post will end. Boring wasn't it? The Clouds I Can Handle Write

Hangovers, Hangups, Dialbacks, Running Make Up, Apologies And Promises [15 Mar 2008|01:49am] [ mood | chipper ] [ music | 7 Weeks - Gym Class Heroes ] Right now I have finished packing. I'm sat in my room which is mostly empty now as the 5 week break requires more stuff to be taken back than I took last time. And as I'm packing I'm coming across things from the term and remembering what's happened. The good times and the bad times. The times I should have changed my mind and the times I should pushed on. But you know, as much as I moan that I might not fit in here or at least feel comftable at times. I'm happy here. Yes, I have moaned to a couple of people that I feel out of place sometimes. Like I'm there to be talked to when other chances are exhausted. But I've realised I'm not. I have good friends here. Good flatmates and good people who I'll miss over the Easter. I'll miss the randomness of missing a seminar to play monopoly, the trips into town that weren't planned, the days at the seaside, the in and out of lectureness, Our singing to Backstreet Boys at 3am and again when we wake up, the early mornings, the moaning cleaners and of course the jaunts onto the roof. These things make me happier. I know while I'm here at Uni I won't get a 1st. I'm not smart enough and in the past I've always missed out on the top grades. I'm not saying I'm not going to try and get the best grade I can but the universe has always been against me. I also know that I won't get a girlfriend or anyone like that. I'm not a guy who can walk up to a girl in a club or bar and ask for a number. I'm too shy to start dancing with the nearest girl. I also know I'm not the most attractive thing in the world and my dancing leaves something to be desired. The only girl I got close to here has a BF (Hurrah btw I haven't lost my kneecaps this week) and we are living together next year so we decided to be friends (Great friends though. She's a closed book but I'm a newspaper. It works well at times). The place here is great. And next year just seems to be looking better with our own flat and bigger roooms and more freedom. Even if it costs more money that I don't have yet and probably never will have. I love the plans we make to do things. But again I know I can't do them the hope is good enough that I could. I worry sometimes I haven't kept in touch with home friends though. I fear I'll go back and only one or two will ever want to anything and I'll be on the sidelines and at home alone again. I could deal with it but after the socialness of Uni it'll hit me hard. Ok, well it's 2am and the whiskey and limeade I had playing Risk is wearing off. I have to get up at 8am cause I have promised to say bye to everyone on the floor before they leave and Faith leaves at 9 so get up early to see her off. I leave at 1pm-ish and get back 2ish. See you then. x ♥ Enjoy The Silence 1 Written|Write

Gonna Let Everything Just Happen [21 Feb 2008|01:53am] [ music | Let It Happen- J.E.W ] OMG you have no idea how much strength that took not to just grab her, kiss the life out of her and stay the night. No idea at all. I need help this is not sane. And I can't see anyone tomorrow at all cause they will hate me. Grrrrr...I'm there for her nothing more. Fucking get that drilled into your head Dan! ♥ 7 Written|Write

Your Urge [17 Feb 2008|12:10am] [ mood | disappointed ] [ music | Your Urge - Maximo Park ] You don't have to deny your urge, It doesn't make you bad. On our admission the make weight's lifted, Stop dwelling on the past. I think about the three of us, I wonder how we tesselate, It would have been much wiser, To allow these feelings to rebate. Empty words so free of connotations, All dreams come to an end. Codify your utterance, communicate your needs, Prepare your vocabulary. My nervousness prevails me, My thoughts are becoming fugitive, And when I'm in your arms, I wonder how much I can give. The weekend is a Godsend, The night time is a lifeline, Another useless fumble, Another drunken stumble, The pinkness round your iris, Reveals that you've been crying, But I don't know what my crime is, I cause upset without trying. People are judged on their mistakes, And how much money that they make. No-one wants to lose their youth, In a trench like this. Visiting the same places, Kissing all the same faces, Building up support, Looking for rapport. I empty out my pockets at the end of the Night, Another scrawled first name, Another sense of shame. I need to get to bed, Before I fail myself again, We got to close that night, And I reached out for your hand. The night time is a lifeline, The weekend is a God send, Another useless fumble, Another drunken stumble, Oh but the pinkness near your iris, Reveals that you've been crying, But I don't know what my crime is, Behind my crumbling veneer. My strength is sapping, My heart strings are snapping, My strength is sapping, My heart strings are snapping. 2 Written|Write

And One Day We'll Get Nostalgic For Disaster [09 Feb 2008|08:56pm] [ mood | sore ] [ music | Hum Halleujah - Fall Out Boy ] Ok, I guess I should post. I do miss this old thing. Well I missing having the time to just sit down and write. Anywho, so on Wednesday my falt were having a good night. Cider (Well, White Strike) was flowing well, Ring Of Fire was continuing along with Bus Driver and Three-man. Anyway the taxis had arrived and I was going down the stairs at a fair pace. And I fell. Well I say fell, but that's a lie. It's half the truth though. You see I got into the habit of jumping this set of 4 stairs as we leave the block and I decided in my haze to jump them once more. This time I went a little too high and a little too far and smashed my forehead into the low ceiling. Then I fell down the stairs. Now I've done some stupid clumsy things in my time but this has to be the most spectacular and painful of my life. I rose onto my knees and heard Ron shout down from his room if I was ok. My reply? "OMG THERE'S BLOOD!". ¬_¬ Graceful eh? Oh and there was blood. Lots. Like a fountain. In fact I was cleaning it up for a good 5 minutes before I let Ron and Jurek take me anywhere cause I didn't want them to get fined. So, with a bandage the size of America on my forehead and, for some reason that remains oblivious to me, an army helmet, we reached Derwent Porters lounge after being told a taxi will be 20 mins cause "people who want to go drinking are more important" as Ron said. The porter came over and got us one in 10 mins. Job done. A&E was dead. And it didn't help that Jurek was taking pics of me as I was giving my details. I got seen to pretty quick and then the doctor told me I just needed glueing instead of stiches and I was out the door. We walked back to the otherside of town (past two girls who were barefoot in the fountain and asking where Dusk was. Then didn't believe us) then got a taxi back. I arrived home and sat in Ron's room with a headache and an even bigger daze over my eyes. As peeps came back I got hugs and some sort of heroes style welcome. I don't see why. It's my bloody fault. Ok, so that was eventful. And I walked into an automatic door yesterday. So I'm at home, resting. Cause to be fair I felt it this week. Like a hard rock in my face (Literally in a way). And I'm just feeling it a bit. In terms of money, sleep pattern etc etc. No where near burning out yet but definatly sparking lol. Anyway, hope you all are having fun. Later. ♥ 1 Written|Write

Dizzy [21 Jan 2008|05:19pm] [ mood | blank ] [ music | Dizzy - Jimmy Eat World ] You close your eyes and kiss your hand then you blow it. But it isn't meant for me, and I notice If the choice was ours alone, Then why'd we both choose letting go? Does it end like this? Time never had a chance to heal your heart Just a number always counting down to a new start If you always knew the truth Then the world would spin around you Are you dizzy yet? Respectfully, so honestly I'm calling out Do you hear the conversation we talk about? Back away to the safety of a quiet house If there's half a chance in this moment When your eyes meet mine, we show it off. All talk and not a lot to think, we were living dreams And she never crept close to our naked feet If there's something left to lose, Then don't let me wear out my shoes I'm still walking. I tried, but it rang and rang, I called all night On a payphone, remember those from another life? If everything I meant to you, You can lick and seal then fold in two Then I've been so blind. Respectfully, so honestly I'm calling out Do you hear the conversation we talk about? Back away to the safety of a quiet house If there's half a chance in this moment When your eyes meet mine, we show it off. Oh, oh take it all back, take the first, the last and only. Oh, oh take it all back, take it all back, Everything you showed me. Oh, oh this must be how it feels when the feeling goes I told you as I hovered, I never felt this way You said I have the shot that stops my clock Baby it's OK You said you'd never have regrets Jesus, is there someone yet Who got their wish; did you get yours, babe? ~ Amazing Song. 1 Written|Write

Always Be [27 Dec 2007|02:47pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | Always Be - Jimmy Eat World ] Phew finally. The cat decided to remove itself from the plugs it now likes sleeping on and my laptop lives again! Anywho where was I? Typical Christmas. What else is there to say really? Usual choclate, moaning, annoyance and arguments that make christmas christmas. Anywho I'm glad that's over. Haul wise I got a camera, few DVD's, CDs' (MMMM J.E.W album. Tis the sex), couple of games and a new Guitar hero controller which makes the games a whole new ball game when your sister can barely keep a combo together. Yeah what else... Oh the Doc Who ep was seriously the best. It had everything and non of this 'Oh Noes trapped in a paraellel universe death crap. Actual death. Balls Of Flame. hell even effective suicide! And I knew Astrid would go and die. Next series looks nice but not sure how they'll bring Rose back in. I don't have much else to write. I have to do some revision but the will isn't there. I miss my Uni friends and Uni in general but I'm not sure if I can make their trip to sheffield thing. And I miss people here too who I wouldn't mind seeing but xmas time it seems is either not the best time or tis too close to new years as I could just wait till then (Chino!). Anywho, I'm off. ♥ 2 Written|Write

Woo-Woo [23 Dec 2007|01:47pm] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Something To Believe In - Aqualung ] Well last night was the reunion thingymajig. It was nice to see everyone again and I was surprised at the sheer amount of people drinking Kopperburg. It was like a Kopperburg appreciation society. Not that I mind lol. Anywho, it was nice to chat to everyone but it hit 8 and we weren't moving for Leeds and considering I wa splanning on last train back at that point it would have been stupid to go to Leeds so me, Josh, John and Glen flew off to the sub bar. Now I've never been in there before but it was ok until it started reminding me of Reflex on a saturday night and trying to get a drink was like a who's who of mid life crisis but the drinks were good. It's no chino tai but still yum. We left about half 11 where we met Gilks and he slapped me for swearing at him at York so that was nice of him >_> . Anyway, went down to the con club to see how that was going on and then walked back home getting a kebab on the way. Yum. Ok, I want to do something. But I don't. And the more I thing about it the more it becomes a bad idea and the more it becomes a clearer choice of something but I'm unsure and should probably do nothing. Gah. Why are all my pillars of wisdom on holiday or MIA? This is useless. Anywho, Merry Xmas everyone! ♥ 1 Written|Write

Term 1 Down. 11 To Go. [17 Dec 2007|06:43pm] [ mood | calm ] [ music | Leaving New York - The Wombats ] Yeah so I haven't updated in like... 3 months? No must be Two but I can't be bothered to check. Anywho, as I'm sat here in my lovely home with my mum (who has upped in coolness since I went to uni now asking me if I want a bottle of Jager for xmas on two reason. A) for me to drink therefore spending less money at uni and B) she wants to try some lol) with nothing else to do I may as well recount the past term in all it's awesome-ness. Ok so first of all, I'll deal with my course cause well that is the most important thing as it's the reason I'm there. It's ok. I had three modules this term. Core Maths was a 30 credit module that I need to get 50% on to pass. I think it went ok. Most of the material we'd already covered but some was new. Tbh I'm glad I had Ash and Soph there to moan and do work with or I wouldn't be feeling this comftable bout it. Applied Maths was so hard and the seminars were more like Wakes so I'm not 100% about this but it doesn't count. Computing was a breeze. Mmmmm computeryness. Ok, what's next? My flat! Oh My we have the best flat in the world going onto the best block. Our floor go out for sunday lunch, rule at pub quizess, go out on nights out we've just gelled so well. We've already started looking for houses for next year together but to no avail. We also made an xmas tree out of carlsberg cans which was cool. We just rule. I'm already missing them :( Ok, York is good too. Nice for shopping and for nights out we usually end up at Toffs. Ziggys is another club which we only go to on wednesday nights when we are plastered thanks to the wonders of PUNCH! (No one on my floor has yet to make it through PUNCH then into Ziggys yet. It's like the holy grail). I've been to Gallery once or twice but tbh I don't like it. As for pubs we usually stick to the far side of the river with Rumours (shots a pound), Dusk (2 for 1 cocktails), and Reflex (80's!!) but there is this one place called Evil Eye where they will make any drink you so desire. My flatemate Luke managed to wing a Jagerbomb with cream and marshmellows. Mmmmm. I can't think of anything else. Tbh it's pretty good there so I don't see anything bad happening in the nearby future. Being back home is a bit surreal. I get the feeling while I thought it might be really busy with going out that no one will do much cept for xmas and new years which while is good for a rest I'm used to going out now :(. Anywho, onwards! ♥ 4 Written|Write

The Past 4 Days... [11 Oct 2007|11:10am] [ mood | accomplished ] [ music | The pretender - Foo FIghters ] Have been absolutly mental. I mean just a rush of crappy food and going out to dance to cheap mixes of music while the DJ asks for a pair of boxer shorts to win a t-shirt. Anywho... The first night I started out a bit crap really. Just sat in my oom worrying this was what it was going to be like. Oh how I was wrong. I went down to the kitchen and our STYCs had come to take us all out into town so we went with most of our floor (B Block, Third floor, Innit). Our STYCs are legendary. WE walked into town and went to Spoons, then Lowther, Then RUmours before ending up at Toffs. Now me, Dave and Mark decided waiting in the rain to get into Toffs was pointless so we got some chips then a taxi back going to bed at an early 2AM. Now I can't rember the day on monday. I think there was a campus tour and then a huge me eting but then there was the freshers ball. Set up like the oscars so it was amazing as we all walked in and of course people got lost. But I met up with Ash, found TIm and Gilks and played some blackjack. Then there was Be*withched...well half of them were...crap lol. They played 3 Be*witched songs then sung thier own so it was a bit "eh?". Anywho after waiting for the buses for a good 45 mins we all headed back and sat up in the kitchen till 4 drinking malibu. TUesday, was good as well. Had nothing all day so didn't wake up till 12 lol. Then at night was the bar crawl which me and Mark didn't have tickets for but they resold tickets and we got some and headed out with everyone. I got slightly pissed. lol. It was a great night though met so many people and was constantly ticking people off from behind ;P lmao. Toffs at the end was immense. Until I sobered up and Luke spilt his pint on me. WE eventuakly left and I said the classic quote, "I remeber being spit roasted". Hahaha Next day, Luke can in an dhis face had been smashed in. He'd fallen over and broken his front teeth and what not. Then his GF broke up with him. Poor guy. But after I had decided to stay in we went out to Ziggys like the York equivalent of Porkys. IT was mad but so shit it was good. needed to be more drunk though. 3 vodka shots is all I had. Then we walked back about midnight. Yeah our block fucking rules btw. Floor 1 sleeps all day, Floor 2 does anything and floor 3, us, partys and cooks all the time. Fuck yes. Anywho, I think I did crap on my test today due to a fire alarm at half 8 fucking me up. And I Still have no idea where to get my H&V ticket from cause I've bought it I just need it lol Peace out ♥ 6 Written|Write

First Day [07 Oct 2007|07:34pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | Homewrecker - Hellogoodbye ] So what happened today? Well: -I arrived and unloaded all my stuff -Unpacked all my stuff and went to meet Ash. -Showed Ash my room and helped him buy some stuff -Meet his well cool housemates and headed back to theirs -Got to know them and then went to JJ's for Pool -Helped one of the guys sneak out a guiness pint and got guiness all over my jacket ¬_¬ -Got lost heading back -Found all my flatmates and they are all from other places (Ie 2 americans, 2 french, 2 germans, an estonian, a Czech etc who have all been here for weeks) bar 4 guys who seem to be too much of rugby types to be good friends. -Got locked out and had to go get a spare key -Had a right laugh with the guy from Holland who is from Halifax college at them making a meal -Joined in with the canadian thanksgiving and had a nice meal Now I sit in my room and have no idea when this college talk is tomorrow and also worrying at the fact I hardly know anyone from langwith which bodes ill for tomorrows freshers ball (I could talk to ash I guess) and heroes and villians (not sure if I'll go now....). Ack I'm feeling a bit lonely. And out of my depth. And like I wanna go home and stay at home for ever. And like I won't fit in anywhere. And I also miss noise. Like T.V backgroud noise. Gah. 7 Written|Write

navigation [ viewing | most recent entries ] [ go | earlier ]