Your Urge

You don't have to deny your urge,
It doesn't make you bad.
On our admission the make weight's lifted,
Stop dwelling on the past.

I think about the three of us,
I wonder how we tesselate,
It would have been much wiser,
To allow these feelings to rebate.

Empty words so free of connotations,
All dreams come to an end.
Codify your utterance, communicate your needs,
Prepare your vocabulary.

My nervousness prevails me,
My thoughts are becoming fugitive,
And when I'm in your arms,
I wonder how much I can give.

The weekend is a Godsend,
The night time is a lifeline,
Another useless fumble,
Another drunken stumble,
The pinkness round your iris,
Reveals that you've been crying,
But I don't know what my crime is,
I cause upset without trying.

People are judged on their mistakes,
And how much money that they make.
No-one wants to lose their youth,
In a trench like this.

Visiting the same places,
Kissing all the same faces,
Building up support,
Looking for rapport.

I empty out my pockets at the end of the Night,
Another scrawled first name,
Another sense of shame.

I need to get to bed,
Before I fail myself again,
We got to close that night,
And I reached out for your hand.

The night time is a lifeline,
The weekend is a God send,
Another useless fumble,
Another drunken stumble,
Oh but the pinkness near your iris,
Reveals that you've been crying,
But I don't know what my crime is,
Behind my crumbling veneer.

My strength is sapping,
My heart strings are snapping,

My strength is sapping,
My heart strings are snapping.
  • Current Music
    Your Urge - Maximo Park


Ok, half way through the holidays. It's going really slow (which is a good thing) but I know this next week will go really fast. I mean, tis Sunday now, I'm gonna do my two essays over the next three days...That is if I don't suddenly decide to do something with Kat. Then Thursday night, Vix might be doing something, Friday night is Ash's and Saturday night is Sarah's. So I'll be fit for nothing Thursday till Monday.

Ok, Nothing else to say really... thought there was more but guess not.


P.S New Academy Is... Album is a bit random. needs a few more listens
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Bingley Tour

Ok, yesterday was Johns play which after a bit of crazy organising I eventually set off to meet people.

Kat was first. Just as I arrived she walked out of the train station so that was some excellent timing. Anywho, went and waited outside the arts centre with load sof people swarmign around. Bingley, Nightlife extreme. Anywho, people arrived slowly but surely but no sign of Lucy and Ricjard so we gave mel Richards ticket and went in. Ok, the play was funny it was. John played a quintessential John character. It wasn't Oberon it was John... King of the fairies lol.

Anywho, play all going well, final scene and John blows us away with as Vix put it 'A really manly voice' lol Anywho, afterwards, we followed Sarh up into the bar and gave John some ego inflating comments about his voice and then sat there for about an hour and talked. During this time I got told to shut up by the bar staff and taz told me not to look at anyone. Pfft.

Anywho, eventually Kat had to go so I walked her to the station, where there were no trains, then to the bus stop, where there were no buses, then to 3 banks where there were no money till the last one and eventually to the taxi rank. Like a tour of Bingley. Anywho, she eventually left (:() and I came home.

Today has been me on the comp. And will continue to be until i feel motivated to do work lol

Lollies <3

  • Current Music
    Drugs Or Me - J.E.W


Ok, on the Uni Front I'm off to York cause Durham rejected me.

Ummm..Today was tiring with all it's walking but oh well.

Hannah's tomorrow, Ice Skating with Kat on Monday (Possibly A&E later on), the play on Thursday, Ash's week on Thurs, Sarah's two weeks tomorrow.

I picture a busy Holiday...hell yes.

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Thnks Fr Th Mmrs

Ok, first things first, The new Fall Out Boy vid is like Pg Tips on Acid. I'm not joking it's fecking mad. Apes everywhere. Crazyness.

Anywho, last night was Pips Party. me and Vix turned up around 8ish and managed to tag onto a group going in so we didn't feel like total idiots walking through the bar getting dodgy looks. Anywho, we immediatly gained a corner which was effectivly the BGS representative. People came like Jenna, Helen, Weaver, Toothill, Sophie, Jess, Jess.D(plus Stu), Joe and...umm...think that wa sit for us. Basically we did just sit in the corner all night. Didn't really want to dance especially when we all got really tired, and then amde sentences with love heart things and tried to flip cards.

We also decided to try and go to Rios Closing night. Ie, Watch Doc Who, Go to Hannahs, Catch somesort of lift to ios, stay till 4am, walk through Bradford, Go to a house, Sleeeeep. Of course, I doubt I'll be allowed to do this but...hmmm...we'll see. Also, there was an arkward moment that should never be spoke of. I'm gonna have words With Jess I am.

Anyway, nothing else really. Still need to do Greenings Essay for Monday...grrr.hate him. Hate Human Geography.

Oh, I need to build a back up for when I fail Maths.

  • Current Music
    Thanks For The Memories - Fall Out Boy

40 Winks

I need sleeeeeeep.

Yesterday was Manchester. The lectures were boring as anything but the day was good. Lots of gossiping and decisions and things. Plus this really cool bar/coffee house that did amazing sandwhiches + Chips but had a really low ceiling in the toilet lol. Was good.

Today was boring. Really boring. Nothing intresting. AT all.

- Geo essay (B)
- Geo Essay (G)
- Sort out folders
- Sort out Videos
- Sort Out Pics
- Sort out life (HAHA don't make me laugh)


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Ok, so yesterday I was ill with a really bad cold. My immune system sucks. Anywho, I sat all day playing FF12 amongest aload of tissues and then I watched Wallace and Gromit: Curse Of The Were-Rabbit Which is just so amazingly funny. When the rabbit weakness is a golden a bullet.... a 24 CARROT Golden Bullet! And Petar Kay was in it. And they once again had Gromit behind the wheel of a plane. Hell yes.

On another note my monetary funds are fading very very fast. Damn Chip and Pin + Amazon.

Today, I feel better and go intos chool for not alot really. Cept Glen got shat on by a bird. In the crotch. I know.

I'm reading old message History (MINEFIELD) but I couldn't help but laugh at this.

ME: I know I'll ask Glen for ... Email
MAX: Go For it! :D
ME: I am but the bastard ain't replying
MAX: Kill him.

Lol. And this:

JOSH:With a Whole 12 Foot!!!
ME: Planet Penis
JOSH: "Like being hit by a Planet"

0_0 What were we on....

Anywho... no money and 6 parties over weeks in a row. My Fri/Sats are full!...Results on Thurs urgh...

And I had a listen to three songs today that made me feel all nostalgic... Funny how you can associate a song to an event/person isn't it? Anywho, night all.

  • Current Music
    The (After) Life Of The Party - F.O.B


Wow, haven't updated in like... a week. And more since I posted anything of substance.

Ok, yesterday me and Ash journeyed to York through the wind and slight drizzle. We headed through ork when we arrived and had a good look around before having dinner in this little restaurant thing. Mmmm Ham and Cheese toasted bagette. Then we went round more and ended up at these two little book shops. The first one was wall to wall books but was a bit empty in terms of stuff I'd want to read but the second one...Oh. MY. God.

Again, wall to wall books but an upstairs too just a big and tall full of fiction. I felt like a big kid. Shame I had like...zero money on me. But I bought £9 worth of books that would have cost me...£16. Well good. So want to just live in there. Anywho, eventually we returned to the station and caught the bus to that Uni where Ash was inadvertedly called a freak. Then we arrived.

I delt with Ash and his wanmdering, leering eyes as ebst I could but otherwise it was ok. The elcture was good if a little scripted in places but all was well. Came back into York and then went back to leeds before heading for Pizzamania and alot of pizza. Came home. Slept.

Ok, I have FAR too much stuff to do and I don't want to do it. I have to do some filimg tomorrow...but I'm gonna leave it till monday. I have to hunt down everyone's china pics...but no one will do it will they? I have too...do things and I just can't be bothered...Grrrr.......
  • Current Music

We Don't Fight Fair

I Be back from the land of rice, walls and ... more rice.

Ok, so, I got back on Thursday night and spent yesterday recovering, getting money changed and reliving my body of doing any walking. It is nie to be back and pics + vids and all that crap will follow sometime this week (Maybe tonight if Josh's party isn't on). I have one amazing pic of me and JOhn on the Great Wall which will come up and also me + Lightsaber!! OH yesh.

As for anything else I got a letter today whichw as a very intresting and was very nice plus a little extra something that is my first extra something which as well as maing me quite happy also sad but bleh, I'll figure that out later under the influence. Sure I'll work it out. But yes that was very nice. ^_^ Course now I need to do a reply, and an email, and the pics and my c/w and the vids.... think I may sleep instead.

Ok, so party now cancelled... We'll see what I do.

Ok, off to listen to F.O.B album now and pre-order FF12. Day!

♥ for letter
  • Current Music
    Evil and a Heathen - Franz Ferdinand